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(11:16 am PT) - Software stuff
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I'm on the Giveaway of the Day feed, which is a site that gives one commercial program away free each day, (and gives away two games on the weekend). Most times the offerings aren't my cuppa, but this one came up today and I thought it looked interesting for writers and such.

Liquid Story Binder XE.

But there's a catch. You have to install the program on the day they're giving it away. No downloading and sitting on it, I'm afraid. So you only have a limited amount of time to get and install it. The homepage will say how much time is left for the program of the day.

I'll try it out myself and see, but thought I'd pass the link along if anyone wanted it.

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(5:49 am PT) - blargh
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The more I dislike a subject, the more I procrastinate, and I will constantly find myself with less than 24 hours to hand in an assignment that's not even 25% complete. Whyyyyyyyy.

Anyway, I've been considering leaving the ACyaoi group for awhile because, honestly, I don't read the fics, so there's not much reason beyond that. However, the mod post I just read (I believe it's unlocked) is seriously making me consider leaving for other reasons. Actually, it's nothing major, but you ever read something that just doesn't sit too well in your brain? Particularly the last sentence for rule #3. I'm not sure what she means or is implying, but why would multi-fandom RP ads not be okay? And why would anyone need to 'think twice' before posting?

Hmm, now that I reread it, I think I don't like the wording because it's vague (and faintly biased sounding), which is not a good thing to see in a mod post. So given that and I don't read the fics, yeah, no point in staying. Just had to work that out a bit and writing it helps with that.

Anyway, will be slaving over paper, but I'll have to finish it early to make sure I have time to fork it over to the abysmal Turnitin verification. (I HATE that thing.) That, and I want my evening free. Boo, networking.

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(7:17 am PT) - duh
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I feel like an idiot. I'd never used the wireless on the lappy because it kept saying the switch was off. I didn't know what the hell that meant, and yesterday damn near tossed it because I couldn't find this mythical switch in any of the software...

...only to learn after a google that it's a simple switch right on the front edge of the comp itself.

i are smarrrt

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(11:25 pm PT) - SNAFU
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Life situation: SNAFU

Moonchan, I got the pic today. I'll probably/possibly start the colour process tomorrow if given time. ::crosses fingers:: Again, thank you, it really is beautiful. Ah, the chibi on the envelope. Anyone in particular, or random chibi?

Randomly, I might start implementing tags on this journal. Maybe. If nothing but for better sorting for m yself and maybe using technorati. But that's a wisp thing and I'm not devoting too much time to it at present.

Have hair dye in posession. Will colour hair tomorrow. What colour? Secret.

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(8:54 am PT) - Drill - 1; Holes - (-5); LN - 0
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So 5 of 7 are done. Unfortunately, none of them were the one that's actually causing me pain, and I don't go back until the 25^th. Ugh. Oh well, my diet of motrin continues.

The local didn't take at first, and required another shot. That was hardly fun. Plus, since it was a double dose, I only got feeling back in my mouth and face this morning. So yeah, no fun there, either.

Ah, Mirchan, whenever you see this, please remind me that I wanted to ask you something about advertising and ads in general. (I meant to before, but kept forgetting.)

Mina, did you get my last email, or did Hotmail choke on it?

Kit, I have three freeware cart scripts in my ToDo folder. I'm going to install and test them out later.

Randomly, I've managed to modify an LJ-to-Nucleus conversion script so I can do batch uploads over at Bryony, because posting 62 times is low on my list of fun things to do. Now just have to rig it so it will read and file in the right category.

Why do I post about this? I'm a wanabe heathen geek, and must blog about my minor programming achievements, that's why.

Also must remember to write keyfic this month. Maybe I can get it out the way this weekend, soon as I figure out which of my guys will actually get with the key, or if I'll have to make a new character.

And now, to toss on some clothes, for I am Teh Nood, and go hunt down breakfast. Clam showder sounds nice right about now.

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(2:57 pm PT) - Nothing, really, just testing out w.bloggar
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Though I should point out to Ko-chan and Mina my problems with being in a harem... unless I'm head slut lady.

Still working on adding all my backgrounds to Bryony, as well as coming up with a sub blog for all the long sidebar tiles that won't work with the current template system.

All hail Friday, the conquering hero.

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(3:04 pm PT) - wondering why I bother, but I guess I will
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It appears xxxHOLIC is tied into Tsubasa, RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE somehow. Which would mean if I considered getting the latter, I might have to get the first. That marks one con for getting Tsubasa. So any additional pros/cons to my considering getting that particular series desired and appreciated.

Randomly, Tori Maia owns my soul. Would gladly bear her children.

And did anyone even bother with that last post? I'm beginning to wonder if I have ghosts on this feed.

Sadly, a part of me is not surprised, either. I can count on my hands the number of times I've had requests for anything answered, be it questions or just a desire to do a joint project. It seldom works out, even though I make series and sincere requests, it's generally ignored.

And so what if I'm feeling sorry for myself? My journal, I'm allowed.

Before I forget, everyone I sent a Xmas gift to last year, or just asked for your address to send you something belated and haven't yet, I need those snail mail addies again. That was one of the things I forgot to get from the old HD when recovering the info. You especially, Mirchan, as I can't send the belt otherwise.

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(8:39 pm PT) - sighing, rambling, dreaming
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For some odd (or perhaps not so odd) reason, little, really unimportant things are beginning to make me feel rather melancholic, and I only halfway know why. But forget knowing, I would rather know how to fix it.

Kalli: Thanks for the links. Oh yes, please do close that poll. I've been getting my mail very late from all my Y!groups, so I didn't even get the notice of a new poll. And only know do I remember that I scanned those Lament of Innocent maps, and totally forgot to send/upload/give them to you. Did you still want/need them?

Kit: Unfortunately, I do hate them. Not to mention, but despite that utter loathing I carry, I checked anyway. No dice.

On an unrelated note, I had two very odd dreams last night. The first centred around me driving a tour bus, taking a group somewhere in Arizona. What the group was or where exactly they were going, I can't remember now. I don't think it was important anyway. The main things were the facts that I couldn't really drive it that well, and I honestly didn't know where I was going. I didn't have a Thomas Guide, though for some reason I didn't want to get on the dispatch and complain about this to central, though I know I should've. A few of the passengers were giving suggestions, and I remember at one point pulling into a seedy liquor store, but it hazes out after that. (I should have written about it when it was still fresh and I had more details.)

The other dream was equally weird, and well nigh impossible. It opened with me being at an old school of mine, walking down a set of spiral stairs that was never there in reality. (I should know, the real stairs are brutal.) I was talking to someone, a guy of Chinese descent. The stairs were so weird and just annoying that we eventually just sort of climbed down the side, being that the design of them allowed for it. When we got to the lobby, there were several people there I knew who I've met at all the Yaoicons I've attended, but they were seriously not like themselves. (I realised it was a dream when Mog showed up, and she was perky. Mog is cool, but perky is not an adjective one would use to describe her, I think.) Now the part that just cinched weirdsville, and what Domino might smack me for, was when she showed up, she had a baby in her arms. I just looked at her, though she said it wasn't hers. Actually, I don't know if that's true or not, but just the fact of seeing a baby in Domino's arms speaks of much strangeness.

These dreams, especially the second, obviously have no rhyme or reason. But I like to write about them, because it's so rare when I can actually remember any of my dreams. Of course, this is a blessing and a curse, because when I start to remember, it's a clear indication that I'm not getting enough sleep.

Suck City.

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(11:54 pm PT) - Fiction isn't fact; let's not confuse the two
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I think I'll use an LJ cut for those on the feed.

Okay, so my therapist mentioned a book she thinks I might like, The Da Vinci Code. I hadn't heard of it, though I admit I've been spending more time perusing manga and anime than serious fictional reads. (I used to read a lot more, but then, that was when I had access to a decent library, too.) She said it shook her belief system more than a little bit, though she didn't sound offended; she seemed to enjoy it in spite of this. She also said that, because I'm more open in my own beliefs, (and because I'm this side shy of being a militant feminist), I might be drawn to the very things that made her pause in her own thinking. She refused to tell me any more, though, wanting me to be surprised and reach my own conclusions. Just from what little she had told me, I had a theory of what could be in the book, though, unfortunately, I find I am wrong. I'm not upset that I am wrong, but at how I discovered I was.

I went to amazon to find a copy, and of course I glance at the reviews. What is so hard to understand about the difference between a review, a rant, and a spoiler. I know now that my enjoyment of the book is going to be greatly diminished, thanks to people feeling a need to tell all.

Sheesh.

But that's not all. Apparently this book has caused a bit of an uproar among some stout/strict/whatever Christians. One review in particular made me want to vomit. Apparently, people also don't understand the concept that, no matter how much fact and research a fictional story is based on/uses, it's still fictional. While I can sort of/somewhat/kind of/not really see the hoopla about The Passion of Christ, this book is just a story. It's not a remake of any historic events far as I can tell. While it may take some facts thereof and draw a line of conjecture, for lack of a better word, this is done so for the sake of a book that is listed in the thriller/suspense genre. What's more suspenseful that trying to rattle one's safety zone, into which religion often falls? But while scholars may try to read more into it, and the inflexible raise hell about it, no doubt it's just one author's theories that he thought would work in a story. If he meant it to be anything of great intellectual value, I think he would have written a non-fictional piece, backing up explicitly stated opinions with as much fact as possible, drawing out conclusions from hard or not-so-hard evidence. I sincerely doubt he's trying to "drag Christianity through the mud" as one reviewer exclaimed.

Though I suppose the author himself was well aware of how many feathers he'd ruffle when he started.

Personally, I find the notion of those who are offended by this book making as much sense as me being offended by the possibility of someone doing deep research into the beginnings of the human race, and writing a story in which it's inferred that the Black race is actually born from alien descendants. (Actually, I think that'd be freakin' cool, especially if I could get some sort of powers </mad sci-fi geek rambling>) I wouldn't jump up screaming at how the author is trying to de-human the Black race (though I know some people who would like nothing better than to do so, and not just against Blacks). It's just fiction; I wouldn't feel the least bit threatened by it. I know my blood is just as red as the next person when I'm cut. I'm secure enough in my humanity not to fear a story using such a plot device.

Or perhaps that's where the problem lie. Maybe those who are offended actually aren't as secure in their beliefs as they thought. Fear can lead to strange behaviour, including irrationally lashing out at the very thing causing this discomfort.

Who knows? I don't.

As for myself, I'll read the book, because I plan to despite have some unwanted knowledge concerning the plot. I'll base the quality on the story, not shock value or sensationalism. If it can withstand that, then it will have carried it's own weight. Though from what I do know, I highly doubt this book is going to show me anything I haven't already pondered on myself in my own spiritual search.

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(11:36 pm PT) - bored and off kilter
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Nothing productive. Instead opted for procrastination with icons at GJ. It's heartening to know that I'll be able to add even more tomorrow.

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(11:36 am PT) - Nothing to see here, just a personal exchange...
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Domino - Sorry, didn't get back until late yesterday, so I missed your message. I can't really make it any earlier than the tenth without the fare hiking up on me. And the schedule I have would get me there around 8:20pm. If that's a problem, I could move it to the 11th. Let me know.

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(10:13 pm PT) - Why? I dunno...
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Currently downloading Wolf's Rain 4. I'm hoping it picks up or goes in a better direction, since I'm still eh about the first three.

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(11:54 pm PT) - hr
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Finished Wolf's Rain 2 & 3. Original premise, predictable scenerios. A lot of what happened I saw coming a mile away, especially with Toboe. Still can't say I'm comfortable with the angst I know is coming, nor the pairing I think it's trying to set up. My only wish would be if the femme doctor who's name eludes me right now were to be a wolf herself. That I'd like, don't ask me why.

Oh well, I'll burn them to CD and put them up somewhere safe...

Toboe is cute, if naive.

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(2:52 pm PT) - ::sigh::
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::idly wishes for a life::

This is what happens to those who want, but cannot afford to go to school.

Nucleus, the lovely program Locuran and Blue Tumbleweeds runs on has a beta release of 2.0 out. Normally I avoid betas. The only reason I'm holding out this time is I'm waiting for Wouter to update the documentation first.

Wouter is a genius. I hate his brain, I want it for myself.

I'll be social later, since I'm overdue in that department.

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(9:42 am PT) - Morning again.
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I've updated my links, least out of the journals. And in case anyone's wonder, I don't link to LJs. Why? I have an LJ I post to occasionally, but mainly I just check my friend's page. So I've probably listed you there if I know you, which makes it easy for me to keep up with all LJ users.

Think I should link to you here anyway? Persuade me, it probably won't be too hard. My current system is just for my own convenience. (And I doubt if my linking to anyone gives them any exposure anyway.)

Also, those links on the right, with the exception of FFX and KH, those are the places I either check more often or are people who simply post more frequently. I try to keep the length of content on that side down, as it will spill over into the left side if it's longer than the main content is, which breaks the layout and just looks ugh.

Still debating Gojyo 'paper, suggestions welcomed.

Not awake yet, so I'll go back to bed and try it again in an hour or so...

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(5:50 pm PT) - Past the weekend lay a barge taking one to paradise for a fee
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I suppose the mother unit's had enough, she's given them until Monday. Of course whatever they were working on fell through again, so they come up with another lame excuse. But really, how long can anyone's compassion and patience be expected to last? Besides, the mother unit cleaned up, and she saw first hand just how incredibly nasty they are. That tends to take whatever remaining patience she would normally have left in this situation and just toss it out the window. ::shrugs:: I'm too numb to care at this point. Do as they will until I can get out, I say.

I was going to work on another wallpaper, but my mouse is acting up way too much to think about trying to make it work. So if I'm lucky, I can just get a new one from Radio Sucks down the street. I did do one last night, but not as happy about it as I think I could be...

<Random>You'd think sending a fax from your comp would be easy, but guess what? It's not. And if it is easy, it costs. Hopefully PayPal got the one I sent. Change my name already you yucks. Sheesh.</Random>

Domino - if you need an ftp proggie, let me know. I think I still have an install of WS_FTP LE on here somewhere, which is all I ever use anyway.

Nothing much to talk about, really. Life's come to a painfully slow crawl ever since my sanctity has been invaded. I just try and make do and hope my muses will forgive me and come back.

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(9:19 pm PT) - ::tap tap tap tap:: The sound of crap being typed out on a keyboard
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Nothing new to report. Creativity still nil. Hellguests still here. Despite this, I managed to crap out a dung piece of work for the FFX Lyric Wheel on the ML. Normally I would berate myself for it, but frankly, I'm lucky to get anything remotely creative out. And truth, I don't think it's that bad, just could be better. ::shrugs:: Maybe I'll post/link to it later. Maybe.

Going to go vegetate now.

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(1:12 pm PT) - And in other news
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So it's like this: the guests from hell's underworld (so you know how bad it is) have got to go tomorrow, and they know this. Now, they had I believe two months in their previous place to find a new home. They've been with us for the majority of this month. Only now do we see these two young ladies (and boy do I use that term loosely) putting in some effort to find a place.

If they'd done this from jumpstreet, my December would have been a lot nicer, and they wouldn't be in the shit they are now. Little wonder I have no sympathy for either of them?

To top it off, my sister looks at my mother like she expects the woman to pull some kind of rabbit out of her hat. HelLO, not her fault you guys were booted out, so why should she be the one to help you now? Wake up and smell the sewers, girls. Reality is there whether you like it or not, and nobody owes you anything, let alone a safety net. You sick or swim, and right now, you'd better do some serious dog paddling.

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(8:34 am PT) - SNAFU
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So let's see, what gifts did I get that I didn't need...
Red Wave
Webhost outtage
Stress

I think that's about it. Actually, there's more, but I'm too tired to bother listing them.

I'm going to call my therapist, I want to know how the cake that's pretending to be a donut came out.

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(11:17 am PT) - Passing time...
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The following grabbed from Mina's place.



Nobody expected anything less, I'm sure.

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(10:32 pm PT) - Randomness for the day.
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Because even if it's mindless dribble, I want to stay/get back into the habit of putting something down in visual media. So...

Updated FFX Yaoi.
Actually felt creativity levels slipping.
Avoided killing sister for yet another day.
Procrastinated on Xmas shopping.
Had tongue molested buy petit four.

I really wanted to go Xmas shopping, but honestly, I don't know what to get/make. Make being preferred. Though I have a good idea for Mchan and Kit. I just have to 1: get to Michael's, and 2: get to Kinko's.

::crosses fingers:: Xmas isn't so bad as long as I don't look at TV or give into this commercialism. I like making gifts, and I enjoy wrapping them... but beyond that, eh. I'm not feeling the spirit yet.

I feel like writing that one impossible wish on a slip of paper and just hiding it somewhere...

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